The Devil Book

 

I've never been into baths, more the opposite really, but I was casting around for an image that would fit the movie i felt I was in,

There was almost nothing I wanted more than to be chosen. 

As long as I'd been paid, I hadn't been humiliated. But what if I lost my fee? It would force me to see what I'd agreed to.

and yet

I will always

be a little

lonely

because a word

never quite

means

the same thing

to everyone 

i once said

in front of a large audience

that i wished

i'd never

been born

i said so and

afterwards

i was afraid

that god had

heard me

not even him

would i abolish

only

his power

Do you feel disgusting too? Do you also beg for love from those who wish to dominate you? Do they also beg for love, but then will you dominate them?

Even the devil can be pitiful. Even the devil can peer into the glass box where you write up your reports and dream of a hand stroking its back.

there are two outcomes: submit or remain a monster.

Because he despised us, because he loved us and realised that one day we'd despise him too.

Because the child was meant to save her, she despised herself, because the child could not

I lost my father to love. My mother.

(mía no cabeza)

Have you ever thought how closed your families are? What is it you're protecting? Money? Is it really only that?